Big Senior Moment: Instead of sending Jim Ridley, goodbooksmedia web-master, my notes for blogs, last week just before he left for a trip and I left to visit my daughter in North Carolina, I sent him a huge section of my spiritual journal, full of much too personal things that could offend the people I wrote about. I asked him to take most of this off and substitute what I am now giving him that follows which included general wisdom I got from these same experience and also more regular things I had waiting for blog insertions on the web.
Gabriel Meyer, a dear friend, had this wonderful insight to convey to me recently.
He calls it the Eucharistic understanding of God. As God is in the Incarnation, and in the Eucharist, He is also in our pain. We want to leave the pain and leap into Him, but He waits for us in the pain.
The daughter who has lymphoma and has 3 children still at home was off to her 5th chemo treatment – they involve lots of pain and nausea, etc. I wrote to her that it seems to me as you go off on the pilgrimage to the torture chamber today that, like Jesus, you are laying down your life on the cross of chemo out of love for your husband and the children. There are many who simply refuse chemo, radiation, and the like, because they don't have anyone they would rather suffer for than leave by just letting go and exiting this "valley of tears."